- Coffee/turmeric powder/chilli powder on HP watercolour paper – I’ll use it like ink… being just coffee it will be monochrome. Seashell collection.

I had a play with the coffee on a bit of scrap watercolour paper and decided I needed a little bit of variation to the soft brown so made up a mix with turmeric which gave a burnt sienna colour and chilli powder which gave me burnt umber. The mixes also gave me some texture.
So I had coffee with a small brush, coffee with a big brush… I could layer the coffee with wide brushes or ‘draw’ with it with a loaded brush; I could also pool the coffee which almost gave me a black, draw with a pen, use the turmeric and chilli mix and remove coffee with a tissue.
Which, to say I thought this would be boring is an amazing range of marks and tones all round a very limited palette to harmonise it – and texture.
I was really surprised with the result which has a strange beauty and captures some of the forms of shells and rocks.
Another benefit is that as it was coffee I didn’t treat it with respect (it was effectively free) and realise I’m always slightly concerned with cost when using ‘real’ paint. This affected my application (it’s difficult to put into words), as well as not thinking I would capture anything worthwhile which meant I told myself I would work for so long and then stop. And my tutor had said I didn’t have to finish all my paintings.
The effect of all this was that I was much more relaxed and really love some of the mark making on this.
2. Coca Cola – on flat watercolour paper… I might try building up washes? Painting the plates. Collection of plates laid out in sun on the floor.

I soon discovered that coke in paintbrush amounts was barely readable, more like a mild stain with a ring round the edge. It makes me realise just how strong the pigment in paint is… weird the coke looks so dark in the glass.
So I mixed coke with turmeric/chilli and paprika as I thought the acid might take the colour up. The powders coloured the coke but made it grainy and as I wanted to paint the plates (which were shiny) I didn’t want the texture so filtered it with a tissue. Interestingly each powder reacted differently with the coke and tissue… the chilli broke really easily whereas the turmeric and paprika filtered much more easily, which is an example of the different qualities of painting materials.
This gave me a browny red (chilli/coke); orange-red (paprika/coke); light brown (turmeric/coke) and light stain (coke). As it didn’t layer very well and pooled easily I tried to break/simplify the painting into four tonal ‘colours’.
Again, as this was ‘free’ painting and I didn’t expect to be able to control the media very well so it really freed me up; it wasn’t costing me anything and I had no prior expectations of being able to create a finished product. so I just had a go.
It was a different and freer emotional relationship to the media and produced a different (not just looser but more confident style of mark making), which was very interesting and gave a pleasing result.
I simplified the composition of the painting keeping in some strong shadows falling across the plates but taking out a lot of detail such as the individual shadows of the bowls, but keeping the internal shadows. So, in a sense I made it slightly abstract.
My biggest surprise is that it has some pleasing qualities and is not awful.
I might not paint with coke but have learned something about mark making.
3. Marmite on a HP paper.

I started on a plate but found it restrictive as a support because the Marmite runs and the plate is shiny, I couldn’t use washes and the upturned lip of the plate caused the Marmite to pool down into the centre… so I experimented with a piece of watercolour paper and that was much better.
As you can see, because it is so slow setting, the Marmite tends to run together and obliterate the marks.
I used all sorts of mark making tools: brushes – end/side and top for thick Marmite; and different sized flat brushes to put on the watered down Marmite; pen nibs and the side and end of a pencil for sticky Marmite; and a dip pen for the writing.
What I like about this, and I think it’s a great learning exercise, is the casual but focused way I applied the media (because it’s Marmite, it’s free and it doesn’t do what I want it to do… and have no expectations of control). It’s really difficult to put into words but it’s a different relationship to the canvas, image and media. The process of painting became more part of me, more natural, rather than something external I was trying to control – more like my natural speaking voice than an instrument I am learning to play – and this made it much easier to connect with the soft toys.
So, although in realist terms (but as I’m learning that is only a tiny sub set of painting) this is weak it has something of me in it and I can see my relationship to the cuddly toys. My son gave them to me when he was little – he has now finished university and is independent – and my relationship to these toys has changed as my relationship to Josh has changed.
There’s a lovely endearing quality that I really like about this painting that I have never managed to capture with ‘real’ paints. It has a ‘wholeness’ that my much more technically skilled paintings haven’t got, and it is a quality I’d like to find in my work when I go back to conventional media.
4. Loganberry jam on white HP paper.

For some strange and bizarre reason I really like this, it is to do with the quality and personality of the image. The objects are almost alive and I have no idea how I’ve done this but it must have something to do with the media and my relationship to it.
It’s not just loose, it has another quality that I really like.
I’ve got to try to carry over some of this when I go back to conventional media.
A few things are objectively clear though… a friend commented, “What an interesting concept loganberry jam painting is.”. This made me realise that the media is part of the painting. If it’s oil it is in one sense invisible, but yet it sets up a series of judgements (has a different feel… more classy and expensive than if it’s acrylic); household paint or children’s poster paint would add a different set of associations. So, in one sense, like the conventions or language of documentary photography is invisible to the viewer so in most cases we don’t even consider the media… however, if we break the convention and use jam it becomes visible and part of the reading of the painting like the brushstrokes or colour palette. But, of course, the irony is that it is always part of the reading, it’s just that most of the time we don’t realise it.
Because I mixed chilli, turmeric and paprika to the loganberry jam to give me a range of colours it made me think of the difference of the carrier (in this case loganberry jam) to the pigment and how the pigment adds colour but the carrier affects how that pigment goes on the canvas, and how it looks in the finished painting. So it affects the making and the end product, like the difference between sculpting the same sculpture in wood or marble. The pigment might be the same but an oil painting, acrylic and watercolour would all produce very different paintings both in actuality and because of the associations we bring to the media.
So, whereas I started my degree thinking it was the colour that was the most important, because that’s what I was focussed on, I now realise that it’s the carrier that is far more important.
5. Hazelnut chocolate sauce on HP watercolour paper

Chocolate sauce is a difficult media because when it dries it becomes solid chocolate and is unworkable, it just comes away from the paper.
I used it straight from the jar, thinned, and mixed with turmeric, paprika and chilli.
Annoyingly, I think this is one of my best paintings – it looks better in the flesh – how can that be… its chocolate!!! I think maybe the lesson, again. is less is more. The eye completes these paintings much better than any kind of ‘copy’ (even a loose copy) I could paint. In some ways they resemble impressionistic paintings as the media is applied roughly in blobs and splodges rather than a controlled painterly way.
The jacket is the weakest but that’s the part I tried to paint with pure chocolate sauce and it was technically very difficult. However, I love the texture inside the collar where I’ve used a spatula to apply the sauce and how it contrasts with the grunginess of the jumper.
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What I’ve learnt:
That the media is very important in how the pigment is put on the canvas, they’re like different instruments in an orchestra. They may be able to play some of the same notes (colours) but have very different tones and qualities which affect both how you apply the paint and how it looks when finished.
The media also affects the audiences viewpoint, how they come to the painting… how they interpret it and to some extent how they value it.
But perhaps the biggest lesson is my relationship to the media and how I apply paint. It’s made me realise that I’ve been trying to control the paint and have, even when working fast and loose, been separate from it; almost as if I’m slightly scared of it and it’s precious. And that I get much better results when the paint becomes an extension of me, more like my voice. It’s really interesting that I needed to work with something that has no monetary value to make me realise that, and also with something that I couldn’t control so had to find new ways of working, technically, emotionally and psychologically.